Monday, June 13, 2011

Journal - Measurements

Today I had my appointment at the Kearney Eye Clinic to get my measurements taken. I think I said earlier that the measurements were to determine what kind of lens I would need, but I found out today that was wrong. What they actually did was measure my cornea, and the length of my eye from front to back. Apparently, the eye length has a lot to do with whether you’re near-sighted or far-sighted.
To get the measurements, all I had to do was sit down in front of this machine, put my chin on the chin-rest and look straight ahead. The machine is automatic and computerized. When I say “automatic and computerized”, what I really mean is that it’s very touchy and temperamental. They got a pretty good reading on my right eye, the one that will be operated on, but it couldn’t get a reading on my left eye, which is the one they can’t do anything with. I should mention here that they measure both eyes, even though only one will be operated on, so they can make a comparison which better enables them to make sure the readings are good. In all fairness, that machine probably works perfectly well on normal eyes. My left eye is pretty messed up.
Anyway, after the first machine failed, they tried me out on a different one. I got the impression that it was an older machine and was less computerized. That one works by actually contacting the eye which meant they had to give me some numbing drops. The second machine didn’t work on my left eye either.
Believe it or not, they had a third machine handy that they tried me out on, but that one couldn’t read my left eye either. They finally decided to just go with the measurements they got on my right eye. The measurements on the left eye were only to be used as kind of an average anyway, and they seemed pretty confident with what they got on my right eye.
In all, it only took about thirty minutes to go through all three machines, so we weren’t there very long at all. After that, we stopped by the library, which is undergoing a lot of construction, to pick up a couple of audiobooks I had reserved, and we were home by 11:30.
My left eye felt a little sore and irritated the rest of the day after all that messing around, and in fact still does now at 8:00 pm. That’s not uncommon, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve come home from the eye doctor with sore, irritated eyes. It should be back to normal by the time I get up tomorrow morning.
So, as far as I know, the next, and last, thing I need to do before surgery is to get a physical. I believe Elinore told me they would let me know when it was time to do that, but I think I’ll give her a call later this week and make sure they have everything they need now.
I’ve sort of been struggling a little on this, as far as what I should be praying for. I hate to be asking God to restore my sight because I don’t know if that’s His plan for me. I keep telling myself that if God doesn’t want this to happen, there’s about a million different ways He could have stopped it by now, but since May 9 everything has happened very quickly and smoothly. I guess all I can do, and all any of us can do really, is to ask that His will be done. I’ve also been praying a lot for patience, and God has really come through for me. I don’t really feel anxious about this at all. But I suppose that will all be out the window as soon as I get that phone call.

Psalms 67:1 May God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face to shine upon us.

Psalms 62:5 For God alone, oh my soul, wait in silence; for my hope is from Him.


  1. The first machine, took pics from where you were sitting, chin on chin rest. The woman kept shaking here head, like I just can't get it.
    Then she got, I guess, a more experienced technician.
    The second machine had a long lens which looked like like it actually touched the eye.
    The third, took totally different measurements.

    My emotions range. I'm all over the place on this one. I'm here, that I'm pretty much sure of. The rest, I just give up to God, and I have only prayed for all along, His will to be done.

    Praying for "I, I, I, want" "Me, Me, Me" Neglects the fact that it is He, He, and He alone who will decide.

    I love you...

  2. Isaiah 41:10~Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.